This Heart.

Today my heart is truly overwhelmed.

This heart is broken over the numerous sick babies I saw yesterday at Good Samaritan. It is broken over the fact that people refused to hold a child because they either smelled, weren't wearing bottoms, were crying, or were clearly sick. Instead, they just watched these beautiful children stand and cry. All they wanted was to be loved. All they needed was love. A comforting hug or someone to just hold them and help them feel safe and cared for. Someone to show them the love of God. How could anyone refuse that? The entire time I sat there, holding three small, very ill, malnourished, and complacent children this thought kept running through my head: "How much would it cost to buy this orphanage and run it?" Seeing pain in the eyes of these children truly broke my heart.

This heart is full of the love of God which has become the rock I place my life on. It is the sustenance of my life. This love is greater than I can comprehend and what I do understand of it is the most beautiful thing I've ever felt and experienced. Abiding in the love of the Lord has filled my heart with a love that overflows.

This heart has hope. As I watch the sunrise over the mountains and see the sunlight trickle through the trees, I'm reminded of the promising hope for Haiti that is only found in the Lord. I see this hope portrayed every day when I see Frantz, the most amazing Haitian man who is full of joy and has hope glistening in his eyes-all because he is madly in love with the Lord. I've never met a man who loves life the way Frantz does. This hope he has is real. Best of all? If every day of life on this earth is terrible, every follower of Christ has the most incredible hope of all-hope for a perfect life with the Lord in heaven. Frantz sees this. I pray that all the people in Haiti who are following Christ will embrace this and wake up every day knowing that there is hope in the Lord. How beautiful.

This heart is hurting over the fact that in 10 days I will be leaving this country and returning to my "home". When in fact, this place is my home. I'm longing to stay and remain in this beautiful place, surrounded by the love and magnificent creation of the Lord. I'm longing to spend every day for the rest of my life in this country being a steward of the Lord and making His name known among this nation. Now, I love my friends and family there and am excited to see them! I know I'm still living in America because that is where the Lord has placed me for such a time as this. However, Haiti is in my heart and will never be and I cannot wait until the day that I can return. Ayiti Nan K em.

This heart is amazed by the Sovereignty of God and how perfect His plans are. I know full well that His timing is perfect and mine is worth nothing. I know that the dreams the Lord has placed in my heart and in the hearts of my dear friends and loved ones will turn into something beautiful. The Lord will be glorified and His name will be made known. Everywhere I look I see His hands. And everywhere I go I'm in His hands.

I pray that I, and you as well will learn to be content in His hands. Wherever that may be. Because there is no place better than that.